ughh.. back to programming.. part 3

wa liew.. i'm such a toot. i finally realised what went wrong. haiz. to think i spent soooo much time thinking over the problem, to realise that i failed to see that the error was not due to where i thought it came from. i even emailed my tutor for help lo.. but in a way, my tutor's reply sort of made me think over what was wrong, which led me to spot my mistake. oh praise the Lord!! i can have a good night's sleep today liao!! ok.. it didn't affect my sleep yesterday la.. lol.. wa, but it's like a huge load off my shoulders. phew!

doing it wrong...

while i was bored, went surfing around, and came upon the site http://www.doingitwrong.com/ while on mr brown's blog. some of the pictures are damn funny, so i decided to post some up here.

how's that for securing your car.

latest military vehicle? well, at least you can run it w/o petrol..

tough job eh?

xbox goes wireless!?!

i like this one. i think you can call it.. Mazda Pi Series..

how's this for some serious modification..

why's he driving that on the road!?!?

i never thought of printing documents this way..

oh i think this is damn funny!!

pretty cool eh.

racer wannabe

do not touch any of these wires!!

erm.. security??

ughh.. back to programming.. part 2

this sucks. i hate it when it gets to this part. the part where there's an error and i have no idea how to debug it. the whole thing is more or less done. the tough part is done, only left some fine tuning here and there. but there's got to be this error that has to pop up. ughh... i've spent the past couple of hours trying to find out what's wrong, look up the internet, but all to no avail. why does parsing a String into double return a null exception error?? why null? i tried displaying the String, not null leh!? is it cos it's trying to parse the reference of the String? then how come last time can, and now cannot!?!? what is the problem!?!?

man, i'm on it for so long until i now hungry liao... arrgh... this is bad.. it's so late already.. i should go and sleep.. but hungry... how sia.. i should've stopped working on it and went to sleep earlier, before i became hungry... i hope my assignment buddy finds a way around it...

ughh.. back to programming..

i'm starting to work on my web technologies project, which is more about programming than web design. so while i was getting the code to work, i spent so much time debugging the thing. ughh.. almost drove me crazy.. man, dunno how much time am i gonna spend on this one this time. it's a project to be done in pairs, but my project mate and i haven't discussed how we're gonna split the job yet. hmm, i guess i'll play around with dreamweaver to get the web design part done.

man, things to be done are never ending. i can't wait for this semester and for youth camp to be over. after youth camp, i think i can rest a bit. ok there's still FYP.. man, i haven't done enough reading for it yet. i just hope next year i'll have more time to do the things i want to do. read books to expand my knowledge, mentor two or three people, find someone to be my mentor, spend more time to meet up with my cell members, get to know someone deeper, earn some bucks to pay off my loans, deepen my knowledge of God and strengthen in my relationship with Him, get better at guitar(hmm, yeah i'm actually more interested in guitar than drums now..), spend more time with my family, friends, and spreading the gospel to the people around me. wow, a lot of things to do huh.. hmmm... i guess i'll not have the chance to really rest eh..

feeling empty..

hmm.. i wonder if it's the flu bug. it's kinda affecting me pretty bad i guess. it got real bad on Sunday. I'm glad it didn't get so bad before i was done with the worship, but after, it was really bad. i was so tired cos of the flu, and my mind was like washed out. my mind was in a blank state, and my head dizzy and all. real bad. well thank God i was still able to think a bit, so can still help qiqin with her physics. then go council meeting.. wah.. i really cannot take it ah. sooo tired. my eyes sooo heavy.. then i haven say anything, dance over le, so i had to start my youth camp meeting. well praise the Lord, somehow i didn't feel so tired, so can still conduct the meeting. then after, went jiayi's house to help her with her physics also. well, still not that bad. managed to solve the problems jiayi had with D.C. must really thank wenyan ah. cos of her i get free trips back to hostel on Sundays. haha..

well, other than the times my mind goes into a blank due to the flu bug, sometimes, i feel a little moody these couple of days. maybe it's not the flu bug, cos there's something weighing on my mind. the people you hold dearest to are also the people who can most easily make or break you too. little words are enough to affect me for a few days. but i didn't want to talk to her about it now. i thought she'd need some time to get over it or something. i think i won't be feeling empty now, cos i duno what to do now. i should be sleeping, but i've been sleeping quite a lot yesterday and today cos of the flu, so i'm not tired now. bah... feeling moody is not good for health. i don't like feeling moody. arrgh.. think i'll just go lie on my bed and keep praying until i fall asleep...

worthiness

something happened, which made me think what is worthiness. what am i worthy of? what are you worthy of? what is it that makes us even worthy of anything?

many times when we do something that hurt our close ones, the ones we love, we think we're not worthy to be who we are to them. our parents love us so much, yet we always disappoint them, disobey them, and we may think that we are unworthy to be their children. but that's not how it works. worthiness is not what we think we are worth, it's about others seeing us as worthy or not. to any good parent, their children will always be worthy of their love, worthy to be their children, because they love them so much, regardless of many times they are hurt by them. sometimes i think i'm really a nobody, not worthy of anything. when i like someone, i always think i'm not worthy of them. the incident that happened made me think deeper about all these, and i felt for myself how much it hurts to have someone you love so much even think about that he/she is not worthy to be someone deserving of your love and care.

for one thing, what makes us think that we're even worthy to be the children of the almighty God? really, there's nothing we can do to be worthy, but we are MADE worthy, through the blood of Christ. it's only because God says that we are worthy, that we are now worthy. when your brother or sister says that you are worthy to be his/her brother or sister, you are, regardless of what you do. that is love, isn't it?

through this incident, i've learned not to say or judge if i'm worthy or not, cos that's not up to me to decide. if others say i am, i simply am, and if they say i'm not, then i'm not. value is in who sees what. a piece of artwork by a famous artist can be very valuable to someone who knows art, but to someone like me who knows nuts and doesn't know how to appreciate, it's nothing more than an object that takes up space. now i know how much it hurts our heavenly Father when we reject Him, thinking that we are not worthy..

favourite quotes from IDMC Conference 2007

"Think Big, Start Small, Build Deep."

"When we work, we work. When we pray, God works."

Happy Birthday Wenyan!!

Happy 21st Birthday, Wenyan!! too bad i cannot make it to your party. i just hope it served as a good opportunity for our church mates to get to know your friends while having fun. hope to see your friends in church soon ah! hahaha..

some updates bout my life. my FYP, that time i said wanted to start a business right, ahh.. no more le. my FYP is termed "Applied Research Project(ARP)", so in our plans to start a business, there's no "Research" elements inside, so fail FYP criteria. oh well, it's ok. we're going to do on servant leadership in banking/financial sector, which i'm interested in too, less the banking/financial part. lol. i hope it'll be good. i hope i can use this opportunity to let my FYP mates know more about Jesus, since Jesus is considered the first Servant Leader, and that's sort of where servant leadership has its roots. pray for me ya?

life is still so busy as usual. so many things to do, i wonder if i'm taking on too many commitments and responsibilities. it's really time to wake up and work on my studies. must make my last semester good. pray for me on this too. i need discipline! i need to prioritise my stuff!! i need to concentrate and not get distracted!!! yeah keep me in prayers k. thanks!

spent a night on saturday at zhuguo ge's place listening to him sharing with me his experiences. it was great listening to his stories. pretty inspirational, and his experiences are very interesting one. then he said next time my turn to share my experiences. lol. my life seems boring leh. i like got nothing much to share on the first 10+ years of my life. i was very much the do-what-i-was-told kind of kid, which in a way means boring and no life. but ah, in leading or ministering and serving youths, need to be able to share on my experiences. haiz.. so how? so today while i was thinking about this, God sort of told me that if i don't have experiences, then i'll need knowledge! use knowledge to make up for my loss in experience! yeah, gotta go read books to gain more knowledge! haven't been reading much these few days. must start to read regularly again!