flying off again

going shenzhen again. this time for two weeks. man. i think it's gonna be a loooong two weeks. haha.. so many things to do there. ughh.. just hope i manage to do everything well and right. God guide me ya. heeh.

flying off in another.. 6.5 hours time. man! i got less than 3 hours to sleep! k time to go sleep. will update again when.. i'm free over at china.

oh, keep me in prayers ya? that i can complete the work i need to do there, professionally and good. hope i can learn a lot there (i think i definitely will), won't fall sick there, luggage won't get lost at airport, nobody pickpocket me (and my bro) there. hope i won't get tooo busy there too. thanks. see ya guys back in singapore in two weeks.

God bless. all those studying for exams, work hard ya!! esp qiqin, eunice and shuiting!! :)

wa i feel terrible..

ughh.. feeling very bad now. last night, tried to tuck myself in bed early at 11+, but couldn't get to sleep. felt more and more nauseous and wanted to puke. so was turning about in my bed till 2+, then cannot tahan liao, went toilet to vomit. ughh.. wa feels damn worse man. vomited twice.. felt much better after vomitting.. thank God i was still able to get some sleep after that. then i was feeling so cold, then i got no blanket, had to use my cardigan as blanket, then halfway through the night, suddenly feel very warm and hot. UGHHHH...

woke up at.. 10+? wa, feeling damn drowsy and lethargic.. head a bit spinning.. start reading bible, but still feel very bad, so went back to sleep. now still feeling very worse.. man.. how to work like that.. i feel that my brain is super slow now.. my eyes so tired, head very heavy, stomach feels weird.. AHHHH!!! just feel like lying on my bed to rest. hai... but still got work to do.. how sia..

next week flying off to China again. gone for two weeks. man.. not exactly looking forward.. think gonna be quite stressful.. but i think after the two weeks, maybe can relax a bit.. lol..

spiritual attacks..?

it seems.. when i'm about to be leading worship for Sunday services, something has to happen. so many times. falling sick, emotional trauma, last minute things that arise that may affect worship prac or stuff.. and it has to happen during the few days when i'm about to lead worship. man.. this is.. very mentally exhausting.. are these attacks from the evil one or what? haiz...

i'm really trying to do my best for You Lord.. i just want to believe that every bad thing will come to pass, that You will set things straight again.. i just hope to do what i can, and leave the rest to You. but i'm struggling Lord.. my mind is weak... i'm unable to ignore the emotions or feelings i have.. please heal me Lord. as much as i try to put the past behind, the pain is still lingering, the wounds are still open.. fill me with Your love again Lord. change the way i think, to think of You only. help me Father...

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