Praise the Lord!!

the results of the phase 2 attachment organization allocation is out!! i got my first choice - Bodynits International!! yay!! near my church, so it'll be pretty convenient for me, and and and, chances that i can go church camp is now much much higher!!! woohoo!!! PRAISE THE LORD!!!

random

just wanna take a breather from writing my psychology report. phew, it's the last report that i have to write for the semester.

with the report down and the ERP project down, that leaves only the java programming assignment. oh, there's the AB214 presentation too, but i'm not so worried about that. looks like i gotta start on my java assignment soon. hope i wont run into too many debugging problems.

hmmm, the past few days have been quite good. feeling pretty much at peace with myself. having resolved a communication problem i've had, and not thinking too much about the fears that i have. been praying more for myself and the people around me. spending less time wasted away doing nothing on the computer. i guess this is the good weather after the storms have gone away(雨过天晴). God is good. =)

though i still have alot on my mind, it's not affecting me emotionally le. spending time fruitfully is really good. hahaha.. i'm starting to enjoy reading. reading books that expand my knowledge. reading books that teach me how to be a better person. i want to be a good person, a good testimony for Him!! i want to be a good student, a good friend, a good brother, a good son, a good co-worker, a good leader, a good follower.. and... a good husband. wahahahahah... -_-"

thanks, my dear bros and sis

ahh, i'm so blessed. i'm so thankful that i have friends, brothers and sisters who will be there for me when i am down. i'm so glad that i have people i can confide in when i have problems. and thank You Lord, for placing them in my life to help me.

thanks weiquan, ceci, yueyee, bingbing, yuneng, qiuling, xinyi. you guys have listened to me pour out my sorrows years back, seen my tears, supported me. i remember everything that you have done for me. you guys will always be my best friends. =)

thanks kor, jiejie, lingling, zhijin, sunmei, aiqing jie, huihui. thanks for all your advice, and listening to my problems. i know that you will be praying for me when i need it. i know you'll be there when i need you. thanks!

thanks to jasmyn and zhenling too. after the chat with you yesterday, i really felt much better. maybe you don't really know what i was referring to, or maybe you do, just that you didn't say it out, but thanks for willing to listen to me, and giving me advice.

thanks shuiting and ziting. sorry for being so moody on sat. you have been very sensitive to my feelings(or am i just so easy to read?), and you are a great encouragement to me. thanks!

and thanks chek, for your prayer.

Thank You Lord, for I know only in You can I place my hope, my everything. I just pray that if it is something You want me to learn, I will be able to learn everything you want me to. yeah I know it will be very hard, very painful, but I just want to commit everything unto You, the source of my strength...

feeling... helpless

haiz.. y do i always feel this way? when such things happen, i'm totally hopelessly lost. don't ask what thing. u know then know. u don't know then don't know. scram. no mood to entertain anyone now. arrghh..

i need to go back. back into the Lord's arms, where i feel safe, and at peace. i think i've gotten more emotional the past few months. i start to feel more bout the things i see, people i meet. is it You? is it the seeds of love that you sowed in my heart?

i just hate this feeling. the feeling i'd hoped i'll never experience again. maybe i just have to learn. i just feel so helpless, and i don't know how to cast the fear away. i'm afraid. so afraid. i don't know how i can fight this fear of mine. it feels that it will only go away if i fast and pray 24/7. my hope is only in You.

God, won't you help me? Please.. help me..

yay! they resolved the network issue!!

great goodness. Praise the Lord hall 3 office or CITS finally did something about the network problem. now we can finally surf the net in peace, without pulling out our hair while waiting for the pages to load. whee~~

yay it's thursday. that means it's end of the week for me, in the sense of going for lessons. wahahaha... i'm feeling great today. woohoo~~ no more network problems!! surfing the net without screw ups is such a blessing!! i won't take it for granted anymore. and no more classes for the week!! hey, don't remind me of the assignments and projects can?

oh, and my FYP group found a tutor to supervise us!! i think she's a good supervising tutor, and she's a Christian too!!! woohoo!! she brought up a suggestion to do our FYP on servant leadership, and i'm excited about it!! duno if charmaine and angela want to do servant leadership not. wow, servant leadership. how interesting!! and i believe i'll be able to learn so so so much from the project, and hopefully be able to live it out as a servant leader in church too!! boy, i want to do my FYP on servant leadership!!!

oh oh, and Happy 18th Birthday to Jiayi!! but haven't buy any present yet what present you want?? wahahaha..

whee.. happy happy.. saturday combined cell outing. happy happy.. sunday badminton. happy happy.. hope wanyi can join us for badminton too. whoo... happy happy...

lousy lousy lousy LOUSY

i am damn pissed off at the hall's internet connection. what nonsense is this? i cannot even attach my document to my email?? i cannot even have a proper msn conversation? i cannot send anything, ANYTHING out at all!?!? what crap?? webpages takes minutes to load?? i can't believe this man. it was not like this before lo. so what the h*ll did the hall office do to the connection that made it like this? ok you found a super duper idi*t that knows nuts bout network to reconfigure the network? or did you just sell the router and replaced it with the one that you picked up from the rubbish chute? what am i paying $190 per month for?? ya the stupid security gate that just adds an additional layer of inconvenience, and any stranger can still get through easily. ya the air con facilities which i DID NOT ask for. ya the "state-of-the-art" security card system which replaces our keys and when we lose the card we pay SO MUCH to replace it. ya for the gym facilities, which only has ONE PATHETIC workout machine. what else, huh? you (*&%*$#(&)%$#&^#(^%(*% piece of dung. well done hall 3. simply marvellous. now i wonder if this post will ever get through.

i'm just so entertained by the ping pong video clip

hahaha... i just love watching the ping pong video. i think it's damn cool la. these guys are just damn good. not their ping pong skills good, but the way the presented the whole matrix ping pong thing. hahaha... the way they coordinated to revolve the view horizontally, and the best part is when they turn the whole set upside down when changing the view to the top, in matrix style. wahahah.. it just never fails to amuse me everytime i re-watch it. and how they give the perception of distance when the guy "flying" up, by moving the person nearer to the audience, and the table and opponent back away from the opponent. they really took care of many of the minute details lo. then the last part when the guy missed the super shot, his expression damn kua zhang and funny lo. wahahha.. the japanese are just so good at making such kind of shows. they're really creative, i think. i wonder if next time our youths in En can come up with such performances too. lol..

the real masters of ping pong

take a look at this. the masters of ping pong. enjoy.

got a new hp number

ladies and gentlemen, pls update my new hp number. my old number will only be in use till the end of this month. as for my new number, refer to my MSN nick. i won't post my number here for the world to know. if you don't have my MSN, ask me, or find someone that does. i already have enough junk mails, so, sorry for not putting up my MSN email too.

no more interview...

DaimlerChrysler called me, said they already found someone for the attachment, so i no need to go down tmr anymore. haiz.. oh well, perhaps it just wasn't for me. i believe God has something even better for me. i'll just wait and see what other opportunities come up.

went for the phychology tutorial as usual today. still so boring and lost as usual. everytime i go for the tutorial, i ask myself why in the first place did i register for that module. ok, i had wanted to try and get a minor in psychology, but just forget about it. i'm just too lazy to get a minor in anything. but now i'm stuck with this module. i just so so regret registering for it, and not dropping it in time. the tutorial is.. pretty screwed up too, i think. the "tutor" is a graduate pursuing masters degree? or Ph.D? duno la, but she's almost always late, though not by alot, but how can the tutor be late for class? and she's obviously not comfortable with teaching. so unsure of how to conduct the class, and she talks like she's mumbling to herself. and cos of that, the class almost always stretches beyond the class time. from what i see as well, all the others in the class are psychology majors, so i'm the only idiot person taking it as an elective/minor. i've already given up on the module long ago. i've S/U-ed it as soon as S/U option is available. what S/U means is that as long as i get a minimum of C, i can just heck care bout the module. so now i just need to try to put in enough effort to just get a C. i've not been going to the lectures since... i forgot when.. i'm just trying to complete the projects(5 of them, all is write research reports one) so i can at least get some marks from it to buffer for my exam(which i foresee i'm gonna screw up). i know nuts bout writing research reports also lo. oh well, i just hope i can get a C...

really bored

i'm really really very very bored. getting cooped up at home, with nothing to do(i dun really feel like doing anything anyway) really sucks. the feeling of being so lethargic that u dun wanna do anything, yet you feel so bored not doing anything, is just sucky. slept for so long i can't get to sleep anymore. since i reached home yesterday, have been sleeping and sleeping and sleeping. sianz, tonight still got to go back to school. need to go back n rush out a report for tmr. oh well, i'm just glad that i'm so much better now. other than feeling abit lethargic, i think i'm ok le.

chek's birthday today, huihui's birthday in 2 days, jiayi's birthday in a week+'s time.. wa.. how sia.. no money to buy present + no time to buy presents. haiz..

sick...

arrgh.. falling sick is bad. food poisoning is lagi worse. also duno if it's food poisoning.. wa yesterday was just bad. i can't remember when was the last time i felt so worse before. super bad stomachache + diarrhoea + vomit. and it had to happen when visiting our church's elderly. so so so sorry to have brought trouble to all yesterday. but i can't really remember what happened also leh.. i just know i was feeling so damn worse, my mind was basically blank. but praise the Lord that i'm feeling much better today. stomach still feeling abit weird la, but dun feel like vomitting anymore le.. but dun really feel like doing anything also.. arrgh... the feeling of being sick is bad.

but it feels even more weird not going to church on a regular sunday. it's the first time i didn't go for service ever since i came back to En. somehow i just feel pretty lost. i wonder what pastor's sermon is about. is sunmei having any problems taking the cell? it's chek's birthday today, but i'm not there to celebrate his birthday with the cell. i'm supposed to be leading the prayer this morning, so sorry that i had to make whoever take over so last minute. it's yuan xiao today, church got lao yu sheng. i'm supposed to bring the camera to help take cell group photos too. did huihui manage to find another camera?

maybe i should have just gone to church. i feel so weird not being at service. but then again, i feel pretty dazed. my mind is abit blur blur one, and my stomach isn't really ok yet. ziting called me just now to ask if i'm better. thanks for the concern. yeah i'm definitely better than yesterday. shuiting, dun worry la, it's not your fault or anything that i fell sick. it's not your ban mian la. sunmei asked me to go take cell photo together with them. on one hand, i really want to be there. but on the other hand, duno if i can make it there.. i just feel so lethargic. and how to tell my mum that i wanna go church just to take cell photo? she confirm wont let me go.. but maybe it'll be better for me to rest at home la.. haiz..