studying once again...

it seems that i havent really got into the life of a student. i've attended my first lecture in..close to 3 years yesterday, and i fell asleep. ok, i always fall asleep in lectures. today's lecture too. mebbe it's the lecturer. definitely today's Principle of Econs lecturer. she is plain boring... she's like just mumbling to herself lidat lo... dunno wat the heck is she teaching man. and her notes dun make sense at first glance(says graph shifts upwards, but in the graph she shifts it to the right. though upon some thinking u realise shifting the graph upwards n to the right is actually the same. but she is making it confusing for us rite...). just staying there listening to her pisses me off. and she keeps saying if we cant stand her voice can leave the lecture. *pui* she thinks she is so great ah!? if not for the respect that she IS my lecturer, i would have left lo. think everyone would have left. jialat...hope i dun get her as my tutor, if not... *sadz*

anyway for the lectures today n yesterday, i havent printed out any lecture notes or watever. opps. and for Biz Law the lecturer say got 12 pages of tutorial lo. 12 PAGES! think i'd better go print them out soon and start doing. but anyway the Biz Law lecture the lecturer was just talking crap. yes...CRAP. singing n talking CRAP. OMG. issit me or is this just the way it is?

for once i feel that i cannot fit in. i cant find the study feel. i dun feel like a student. think i've slacked too much the past few months.

ok i'm just bored now so just feel like complaining. i'm helping to rip 50+++ cds to mp3 format. OMG. tatz hundreds of songs, Gigabytes of memory. i've been at it for HOURS and HOURS. arggh... but thank goodness i'm done soon. oh no, i still have to burn them into cds. arrgh...

D.I.S.C. personality test

ok i took this test last week. just remembered bout it so i tot i'll pen it down here.

i'm a C.S. person. i'm an analyst(according to older version), and a precisionist/perfectionist.
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ANALYST

OUTSTANDING TRAITS
People see you as a reliable, factual, steady, open-minded person. You tend to be a stickler for system and order. You make decisions based on proven precedent and known facts. In all your activity, you try meticulously to live up to high standards. You are diplomatic and precise, and you try to avoid unnecessary risk or trouble. You are not at ease until the correctness of your actions and decisions have been confirmed. You are sensitive to possible hidden meanings and ulterior motives. You are cooperative and careful, tactful, and thorough, consistent and foresighted. You are logical, critical, and incisive in your approach to attaining goals.

BASIC DESIRES AND INTERNAL DRIVE
Basically, you are much the same person people see: modest, reflective, stable, precise. You are challenged by difficult problems that require thoughts and analysis but will not accept just any solution - you want the right answer. You are a good team member and like to share responsibility by operating as part of a group. You like standard operating peocedures and a settled track to follow. You are painstakingly accurate.

NEED FOR POSSIBLE IMPROVEMENT
You may spend too much time checking and rechecking details and doing things yourself to be sure they are done right. You may become too dependent upon procedures. Your decisions are apt to be tentative, guarded, and low-risk, and you may hesitate to act without orders, rules, or precedent.

HOW TO ENCOURAGE AND MANAGE
You work best for a manager who is always available to discuss key moves and who is willing to help out when the pressure is on. You do particularly well with projects involving precision, organisation, and planning. You like to know exactly what is expected of you so you can do it conscienciously and well.

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yup, tatz pretty much me. this is taken from some book published in 1993. there's another book more updated one, dated 2000, but i dun have tat analysis of myself from tat book. Pastor said tat C.S. pple with very low I(not I as in I, but D.I.S.C. the I.) tend to think too much and keep everything to themselves, therefore prone to depression. yeah this is quite true i guess, and it runs in my family. especially true for my dad, and my bro and me are lidat too.

think this is sort of a curse(just learn one. blessings and curses). shall pray hard to break this. pray for me n my family too. ^_^

updates...

so it's been some time since i last blogged. yeah in the end i did go to hall camp, but i left on 2 of the days la. hmm...having some difficulty typing now, cos i cut my finger earlier in church doing some stuffs... can't use my left index finger to type. think i scared lingling just now. lol. when she found out i got cut she help me bandage my finger, only to see my face turn really white. yeah and i felt damn giddy. it's like everything went white too. like gonna blackout liao, then i quickly went to the sofa n rest... she like quite shock tat i became so pale, then ask help from pastor. pastor gave me a cup of hot milo, and after tat i returned to normal le. haha... hmm...it was quite scary for me too la. never had such experience where i felt soooo... erm... duno how to say. like lose too much blood lidat and blackout tat kinda feeling. then i like break out in cold sweat too. haha... sorry ah lingling, scared u out. LoL.

ok back to hall camp. it wasnt tat fun la, but glad got join and got to know more pple living in my wing n my sister wing. i missed out on the highlight - fright night. too bad la... think it'd have been fun.

anyways now i'm trying very hard to find pple same lecture group as me lo. is like everyone takes accounting, and only me business. thank God i still got a free day - tuesday. plan to join photography n videography club, NTU Navigators, and mebbe i'll try to audition for jam band. but with my finger lidat... duno can play drums anot...

pray for my healing... =)

to go...? or not to go...?

*sigh*

i'm having hesitations on whether to go for hall camp next week anot. it seems that 1) i dun have much time, 2) i dun have money, and thus 3) dun feel like going.

i gotta give tuition, and when the semester starts, i'll have less time to make up for lessons if i went for hall camp. in fact, if can i wanna pia 1 more lesson next week so tat the first week of uni i only need to give 1 lesson. plus drums, moving into hostel, this and that... ya...starting to feel pretty lazy to go hall camp...

i really got no more money now. the pay i got for working last month at Escape went into the Hall registration or something($300). i only get my tuition pay end of the month. the pay for helping out at the sailing competition may only come in next month. my bank only has $50+ left lo... think the camp is $45. oh and i haven pay yuneng for the drama performance this sunday one lo... how how how?

k weiquan just call me say clement n him register n pay up for the camp liaoz... actually money is not a prob. can always borrow from someone first, then when i get my pay(s) can return them. the problem is.... TIME!!! the camp is monday to saturday lo... hai... nvm...i shall use today and tomorrow to think about it... and pray about it...

time passes fast...?

hmm...it seems tat time passes rather quickly these few days. mebbe was pretty busy, with work, POD, DotA, etc. it seems not long ago tat i last blogged, but i was actually close to a week back le.

yeah anyway the fund-raising was a success. managed to hit our target. POD, however, suffered bad response from the public. ok, mebbe partly cos our priority was fund-raising, so didnt spend too much time on POD. well anyway, thanks to all who donated to the event.

yeah i just got news tat i got into hall 3 a few days back. so i'm in the same hall as hanwei(roomie), weiquan, clement, shingkit, junwei, shimin, xinmin... heh... think it's gonna be fun living in hostel, with so many frenz around, not to mention those tat i gonna get to know during hall camp which starts next mon - sat. will be going down to get the keys on friday with hanwei they all. hmm...but somehow i not so looking forward to uni leh.. mebbe this past month too carefree le. no worries, no stress. and i enjoy helping out in church, with watever stuff there is. haha...

k, going out soon. watching fantastic 4 this evening. DotA-ing later with ah fu they all. not playing so much anymore recently la. fasting on meals n things tat distract, like games. k, i've been slacking in fasting these couple of days.. but nvm, at least i'm back to fasting today. lunch i mean.

*tried sand king earlier. he's really pretty strong. oh i just love stuns*

temp job

yeah, thanks to weiquan, i got myself a 3-day temp job. it's to help out at the inter-schools sailing competition. i'm sort of representing a teacher from sports school la, and i'm getting paid $9/hr!! ok, the job scope is very very simple. basically, is just to read out numbers when the sailors pass by your 'station', or wat we call 'mark' in the competition. simple rite? other than tat, really nothing much to do. but but but, the thing is tat u're out in the sea whole day. go out at 9.30am, then come back only when all the races for the day ends, and it can end at 5+ lo. luckily today end at 4. ya, so is whole day out in the sea, and if wanna pee, no toilet lo. so how? jump into the sea n pee. serious! tatz y i dun dare drink too much water. LoL.

but tat is not the most worrying thing out in the sea. well, cos the boat we take is actually quite lok-cok, and very small, so in the sea it will keep swaying up n down, for the whole day! OMG! after 1 hour in the boat, i started to feel sea-sick. for the couple of hours tat ensued, i felt damn sea-sick, and cos it's so bored, i felt like sleeping also. so i was like gonna doze off, but felt like puking at the same time. not a gd feeling lo. Praise the Lord after bout 1pm, i felt much much much better. only occasionally feel abit sea-sick. poor weiquan. he worked yesterday, and puked 3 times. ya he's prone to motion sickness. so so so, today after i finished work, i went to guardian pharmacy n got myself motion sickness medicine. no fear anymore! wahahaha~

what if you have only a few months to live?

was listening to 音乐日记 earlier, was bout a gd fren(of the author of the letter) tat contracted cancer, and eventually died. was quite emotionally disturbed by it. ok i'm quite an emotional person when listening to touching stories/watching touching movies one. suddenly it stuck my mind tat wat if one day i found out i only have a few months to live? wat am i going to do? i know very clearly in my mind tat if tat happens, i will use all my remaining time to spread the Word to the people around me, especially my relatives n frenz. a real life story came to my mind. it's a video i watched in church, i cant rem the name of the guy anymore. this guy he contracted forget wat illness le, and it totally disfigured him. but his love for God only grows stronger, and everyday he uses his all to share his love of God. eventually wat he did touched many hearts of the people around him.

if i know i have just a few more months to live, i want to spread the Word just like he did. i really yearn for the people around me to get to know Christ as well. i'm praying everyday for my frenz and relatives. but what is prayer without works? in the end i still dun have the courage to tell my frenz about Jesus...

then into deeper thought, i realised tat i am wrong. y must i think tat only when i have a few more months to live, then i want to evangelise to the people around me? i must do it now! nobody knows what will happen next. for all u know, i might just die in an accident tomorrow. so, i cannot wait anymore! i must tell my frenz about Jesus like i have no more tomorrow!!

yet... i feel tat i still dun have the courage. please my fellow brothers n sisters, pray for me. pray for my courage.

for my non-christian frenz, i want u to know tat even if i have never met u, even if i have only known u thru the Net, even if i have only spoken to u once or not at all, i desire for u to know the Love of God. i yearn for the whole of the world to come to know God. for when tat day comes, Jesus will be back.

for my good n close frenz, all the more i want u to experience God like i have, and even more.

yes... i am praying for all of u... everyday... i am praying for u...

first lesson

today had my first lesson with my student. well, wasnt so bad, as in the things marissa asked me i sort of still know la, still can remember. but i think i better go n revise more and refresh my memory on the maths n physics stuff.

it seems that she hasnt been paying attention in sec 3 la, or so she said, and so i had to start teaching her all the sec 3 stuff. actually she seems quite smart la, mebbe just not hardworking lo. just hope tat by 'O's, she will be well prepared, and hopefully do well in her papers, esp physics n a maths, of course. haha...

anyway this coming saturday is our Flag Day! i'll be stationed at tampines la, so all my frenz, pls do drop by, k?

challenging IQ question

got this from clement's blog. seems tat he got the question from johnson. not bad, i think it's quite challenging. i took 2 hours to get it
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You have 12 coins. One of them is "defective", meaning that it weighs differently from the others. How do you tell, using a balance, which coin is defective, and whether it is lighter or heavier than the others, in 3 weighings?
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anyway i watched Initial D yesterday with weiquan hanwei n chunghang. yeah it's not bad, just tat too compressed, so missed out alot of things from the anime. but i feel it's a gd job, pretty original to the anime, except for some parts la, but guess couldnt be helped.

oh and the drifting is sooo cool~ i wan learn too. LoL.