worthiness

something happened, which made me think what is worthiness. what am i worthy of? what are you worthy of? what is it that makes us even worthy of anything?

many times when we do something that hurt our close ones, the ones we love, we think we're not worthy to be who we are to them. our parents love us so much, yet we always disappoint them, disobey them, and we may think that we are unworthy to be their children. but that's not how it works. worthiness is not what we think we are worth, it's about others seeing us as worthy or not. to any good parent, their children will always be worthy of their love, worthy to be their children, because they love them so much, regardless of many times they are hurt by them. sometimes i think i'm really a nobody, not worthy of anything. when i like someone, i always think i'm not worthy of them. the incident that happened made me think deeper about all these, and i felt for myself how much it hurts to have someone you love so much even think about that he/she is not worthy to be someone deserving of your love and care.

for one thing, what makes us think that we're even worthy to be the children of the almighty God? really, there's nothing we can do to be worthy, but we are MADE worthy, through the blood of Christ. it's only because God says that we are worthy, that we are now worthy. when your brother or sister says that you are worthy to be his/her brother or sister, you are, regardless of what you do. that is love, isn't it?

through this incident, i've learned not to say or judge if i'm worthy or not, cos that's not up to me to decide. if others say i am, i simply am, and if they say i'm not, then i'm not. value is in who sees what. a piece of artwork by a famous artist can be very valuable to someone who knows art, but to someone like me who knows nuts and doesn't know how to appreciate, it's nothing more than an object that takes up space. now i know how much it hurts our heavenly Father when we reject Him, thinking that we are not worthy..