my 100th entry!

wow this is my 100th entry since i blogged here. i wonder how long i'm going to continue blogging. anyway blogging is good for lazy pple like me who don't write dairies. feel like it, just pen out some feelings/thoughts in my blog. in future(as long as the server dont die), can just go and read all my past entries and laugh at how immature i am last time, reminisence on past memories all that.

anyway, i wanna thank God today!! i managed to loan 2 textbooks from my tutor, so i can save bout $80 bucks from buying new textbooks! Praise the Lord!! He really provides!!!

Happy Birthday Bro!!

today is my bro's birthday. Happy Birthday Bro!!! thanks for being such a great brother to me!!

ok, that aside. today's been really sian. i just cant get the drive and motivation to study. accounting lecture is plain boring, i was just fighting to keep my eyes open. tutorial wasn't that boring, but i just duno what is going on. i really need to read up on my notes, and start getting my textbooks!!! it's already the 4th week!!! what am i doing!?!? ok i dun wanna buy textbooks. so expensive. every semester also need to buy so many textbooks. where got money sia. ahh..i'm just so sick of studying, though i'm not studying at all. projects are coming. i need to get the motivation to study!! to go and do some work!!! oh Lord, HELP ME!!!

no mood to study!! i dun like projects!!

i dun like doing projects!! especially more so when my group has only 2 people when there should be 3!! especially more when there is only 2 people in the group and the other person happens to be a non-local and more than half of what he's saying i dun understand at all!! and him by speaking so softly doesn't help at all!! ahh... spent a few hours of very unproductive time trying to complete the project assignment which is to be handed in today. but thank God it is finally finished. seriously i damn sian about the project la, to the point i abit heck care what we hand in le. this i must apologize to my teammate. but, i just feel so sian, esp when i like know nuts about what is required lo. think my group mate like abit pissed with me also. he like very gan jiong bout whether can finish in time anot, then i like so relak relak... but duno y he like everything wan ask me leh, then actually i havent really read up on the case article, so i duno how to answer also lo. then i say something then he will "orh...ok ok..." like that, like everything agree with me. then he ownself say one he dun write, i say one he immediately write down. aiyoh... think i must find one more to join us soon, if not i think i'll go crazy if this goes on. think he will also buay tahan. hahaha... maybe God wants me to learn to be more patient...

think i must switch mode to study mode. ever since came back from mission trip, i haven't been doing any studying at all!!! too busy travelling to and fro church, home and school and attending pastor zhang's lessons. today is finally the time when i can take a break, cos today and tomorrow no pastor zhang's lessons, and today i only got morning lessons. but then again, it seems that when i go for so much of lessons in church, when no need to go for lesson like feels abit weird. haha... anyway i love going for pastor zhang's lessons. always something new to learn, something new to experience. Praise the Lord!

you wish you had known him/her sooner?

ahh this morning log in MSN, then see one of my fren log in, then the nick put something like "why do i know you know and not earlier". ok i was in the BC203(the module i taking) seminar in IT lab, and maybe cos very boring so i start to think bout other stuff. yeah, so i was thinking why people always like to say such things, like they get a bf/gf liao then say things like "i regret not knowing you earlier". ok, maybe is cos of the circumstances i'm in now la, so i think knowing your partner earlier may not be a good thing.

i've spoken to a few people in church bout BGR stuff, and all of them tell me the same thing: dun get involved in relationships too early. and they all say that relationships last for 2-3 years enough already, then get married. so the time that you're suitable to go into a relationship is 2-3 years before u decide to get married. so example i decide to get married at.. lets say 29, minus 2-3 years of courtship, means i'm suitable to get a girlfriend when i'm bout 26. wow. like pretty late right. haha.. so going back to the topic, since i'm suitable to get a gf only when i'm like 26, getting to know/like someone now is too early. so, contrary to popular thinking, how i wish that i've not fallen for you now, cos now is not the time yet... *sigh*

i know some of u out there sure say, nvm la, get a gf first, no need must get married one ma. yala, get gf is not die die must marry her one, but i dun wan to go into a relationship if i dun intend to marry her, means that unless something goes wrong in the relationship i will marry her la. then some of u will say get gf first, get experience ma. wa i think this is crap nonsense. seriously i dun understand why some people go into relationships when they dun want to marry the other party. then why go into relationship? just to satisfy the desires of the heart? i think this is so immature thinking, so irresponsible.

ok, i didnt say why courtship only 2-3 years right. ahh, this will take pretty long to explain. of cos can longer la, but... got the reasons la. i havent ask any pple out of my church regarding this. hmm... maybe i can go and do some survey and use this as my research project. hahaha..

i missed a class again!!!

oh NO!!! i missed a class yesterday without even knowing it!! i printed out my timetable wrongly, and i thought my AB213 class is on thursday, but the one i registered is actually yesterday!!! oh this is bad!!! and the worse thing is it's AB213, the sequel module to stats, which i got C last sem!!! ahhhh!!! God help me!!!

first day of school

'first' day of school for me. lol. missed out totally on last week's lessons. anyway today only got accounting lecture. the lecture was pretty boring. man.. gotta endure another semester of boring lectures again. i still haven't get over the holiday mood. not in the state to study at all. this is bad. must force myself to study.

anyway, i picked up my key for my new hostel room this morning yesterday morning(already past 12...i should be sleeping man...). it's pretty well located. 3rd floor, and it's with the single rooms side! wow, 2nd round still can get such a room. Praise the Lord!! and i dun have a roomie yet!! so the room is all mine for now. wahahaha... hope nobody ever comes in to be my roomie, then i can have the room all to myself. lol. extra large single room at the price of a double!!! woohoo~ wa then like that i can invite frenz over to stay at my room too. haha... who? who wan come stay with me?? lol.

another wonderful day

it's another wonderful day. Praise the Lord! The worship led by LingLing today was wonderful!! it really ministered to me! i could feel the Holy Spirit's presense so strongly. ahh... it was good. then sermon was ok la... i was dozing off...lol... didnt really catch half of what pastor was saying. my bad. my bad. then the teaching by xiangling jie i didnt really remember what she was saying also. maybe cos what she teaching today more for the 中年 pple. haha.. then after that was a looong slacking period, waiting for time to pass, cos plan to go 赞美之泉 at night, so just stay in church and pass time lo. so loitering around in church, see the dance pple dance, see pple play chinese chess, then play abit of bridge, then jiayi got some problems with maths so teach her abit also... so thatz how i spent the 4+ hours. lol. then go bedok makan and go bethesda cathedral for 赞美之泉.

wow it was another amazing praise and worship session. the songs are really nice. must get my hands on the album soon. haha.. i was praising and worshipping the Lord until i almost lost my voice liao. hahaha..

ahh... it's nice to be able to praise and worship God. when i'm in heaven when my physical body dies, i'll be worshipping Him all the time for eternity!! so good right. hehe.. anyway, today is another happy day. haha.. i know it is God working. Thank you Lord. being able to... ahh i'll skip the details. lol. learn to be more contented, and you'll be more happy too. hee. oh but tmr gotta go back to school liao. ahh thatz pretty sianz. oh well, it's inevitable. i must work hard!!!! get straight As!!!!!

So good to be back in cell

ahh, after missing cell for 4-5 weeks, it's really nice to be back in cell again. was so busy with mission fund raising, work, and for the last 2 weeks was away in China, so missed so many cell meetings. ever since i faithfully attended cell and church i've never missed so many cell meetings in a row before. actually i dun remember missing any cell before. lol.

it's nice to be back in cell, with guanghui ge leading the cell, jiahui talking some nonsense here and there, zhijin giving funny answers(eh.. not funny answers la... duno how to put it... lol), sunmei... ehh... just sharing... haha..., shuiting... being made fun of... lol..., shane being the cool cool big bro with the standard answers, etc etc. it's just such a great feeling to be with them. i think i've grown attached to this cell already.

i'm so glad God put zhijin and sunmei in my life. they're such good brothers and sisters. and shuiting is like a small sister to me. seeing her grow to be more sensible and mature just makes me happy. haha.. i believe God has big things for her in the future. having them around just makes all my unhappiness and sorrows go away. at least i feel so today.

i'm so blessed to have such good brothers and sisters, friends and buddies around me. not just the brothers and sisters in church, but my good friends like weiquan, wanyi, bingbing, yueyee, ceci, qiuling, xinyi, yuneng, yonghe, hanwei, clement, chunghang, etc, etc, etc. they've all stood by my side when i was down, helping me whenever i need it. i think i'm abit neglecting this group of buddies of mine. too caught up with church stuff to meet up with them. perhaps i should devote abit more time to meet up with them more. but then again, they're all so busy too. oh well.. i'll be praying for you guys. really hope that you guys can join me in church someday...

God is good

God is so good to me. He answers your prayers when it is according to His will. I was still feeling pretty down this morning, actually for the past few days also la, but this afternoon i go and do my discipleship book, and i prayed and prayed for God to take away my sadness and all the negative feelings, and after that i really felt better! then in the evening i went for a jog, was thinking bout some stuff while jogging, and after the jog i feel good! Praise the Lord!

i was thinking bout some stuff which i think i'll not put here la. duno if what i thought about can really work out anot.. oh well.. should i try to work towards something which i thought out? or should i just stick to what i've planned to do? hmm.. i think i'll continue to pray about it...

back in Singapore!!

I'm back in Singapore!! dun really know to be happy or sad, cos that's the end of my holidays. i've already missed a week's lessons. man... back to the boring study routine again. hmm.. i wonder who my roommate is...

anyway, the mission trip was quite fun la, except that i myself was thinking abit too much about some stuff which i should not be thinking about. then i kena some allergy there too. should be allergy la, since doctor say shouldn't be insect bite. i also think is not insect bite. funny that i'm the only one that kena.

generally, the stuff over at Kunming is pretty cheap. food is very cheap. lol. i ate lots there. i bought quite a few books back too. i must learn to read more books! i must make reading a part of my lifestyle!

ok so about the mission trip, we went to Dali for bout 3-4 days, where we had fun with the kids there. haha.. and they're really friendly. some of them are really shy though. lol. maybe cos not familiar with us ba. we played games with them, teach them some simple stuff, and on the third day we went visiting their homes. visiting some of their homes just makes you feel that you are so blessed and fortunate. some of the not so well-off homes is really just 4 walls lo. really got nothing one. those better ones got TV all those. it really makes you learn to treasure what you have. some of their families only earn bout RMB 2-3K a year, and when i heard that, i was looking at my camera and... my camera alone is already more than what they earn a year!! man, how blessed am I!! but they are really hospitable. almost every home we went to, we'd leave with a bag of fruits. so in the end we all came back with so much fruits!! we went back to Kunming with one whole big bag of fruits. lol.

oh did i mention the toilets? man the toilet is something you'd never see in Singapore. the smell is one thing, what is really disgusting is the maggots in the toilet bowl. yucks! hundreds of maggots down there waiting for people to feed them with shit (as patrick puts it). arrgh... disgusting.