feeling... helpless

haiz.. y do i always feel this way? when such things happen, i'm totally hopelessly lost. don't ask what thing. u know then know. u don't know then don't know. scram. no mood to entertain anyone now. arrghh..

i need to go back. back into the Lord's arms, where i feel safe, and at peace. i think i've gotten more emotional the past few months. i start to feel more bout the things i see, people i meet. is it You? is it the seeds of love that you sowed in my heart?

i just hate this feeling. the feeling i'd hoped i'll never experience again. maybe i just have to learn. i just feel so helpless, and i don't know how to cast the fear away. i'm afraid. so afraid. i don't know how i can fight this fear of mine. it feels that it will only go away if i fast and pray 24/7. my hope is only in You.

God, won't you help me? Please.. help me..