勇敢走出去

词、曲：郑耀华

我并不完美，也并不特别，
而你却是为我舍弃生命的主；
我时常软弱，有时会迷惑，
但你是道路真理和生命。

主你要往哪里走，我就跟你走，
领我走到世界尽头，一生不再回头；
让世界听到我们敬拜，我们的祷告，
让复兴从我们开始，将主爱带到人群中。

纵然有许多的问题，我也不放弃，
你大能赐给我勇气，我会勇敢走出去。

FYP

how i envy accounting students, no need to do FYP. but oh well, since i don't have any other choice, i'll just have to make the best out of it. previously i was pretty interested in doing on servant leadership as my FYP, but like not linked to what my FYP mates and i studying. my two pretty project mates are both from banking and finance, and i'm from IT. so today while we met to finalise on our topic, i brought up that my cousin suggested starting up a company as our FYP. o_O sounds damn cool right!? but sounds pretty tough. wa but if can do it up, i think it's damn good la. after grad, no need to worry how to find job. wahahaha.. or i sell off the business for a few millions. LOL!! wa i think until i sure succeed like that. think it's gonna be lots of hard work, but i'm quite excited.

got Abraham biao ge as my advisor, think will help a lot. his experiences will help tons. or maybe do some collaboration with one of his businesses. hmmm.. interesting huh.. start my own company, woah.. what a great challenge!! but for now, still nothing concrete yet though. hmmm better find a day to meet up with Abraham biao ge soon, see what ideas he has. oh yeah, still need to find my FYP supervisor and see what are her inputs too.. hmmm hmmm... must keep this in prayers...

oh yeah, please do keep me in prayers. still very slack, can't find the motivation to study. quite a lot of things to do this semester. five modules, FYP, youth camp, tuition. XZG jio-ed me to join lifesaver course, but think i quite glad i gave it a pass. one thing is it's pretty tough as i'm a lousy swimmer, and secondly, got no time ah. other than study for my five modules, still need to study for 'A' levels. no i'm not re-taking it, i'm giving tuition to Jiayi and co., hmmm.. maybe Doreen also. really hope that i can help them get good grades, so i must study hard to remember everything i've learnt in JC!! woah.. busy busy...

Happy Birthday Sunmei!!

went Bodynits company dinner today. wow, first time i had such VIP treatment. lol. i was seated at the VIP table, and all the dishes were all prepared in the kitchen per serving for us!! as in, when they served the dishes, is right up to my front, and i can just start eating. no need to stretch my hand at all to try to snatch the food. haha.. at first abit paiseh though. i used to be just a small intern at Bodynits, then now suddenly sitting at VIP table. lol. well, it's very good la, just that the servings ah, not very big, and as you might know, i have a big appetite. haha..

then after dinner, went for the fireworks show at marina bay. biquan ge and janet jie not free to go, so i asked my bro and zhenling to come, so the tix don't get wasted. well, the walk there.. you know la, so many pple. and it wasn't so near. but it was worth it. the fireworks are great!! 15 mins long!! first time get to sit down, relax, no squeezing here and there, and i have a great and clear view of the fireworks!! shiok! after that went to meet sunmei and zhijin at marina sq, then went bedok for supper.

well, i don't know if i'm too conversative or what. how often do you get hugged by someone of the opposite gender, other than your family? well this is what happened. at the dinner, there was sort of free flow of red wine, so some of them apparently drank quite a few glasses of it. so i went over to the other table to say hi to my ex-colleagues, and one of them saw me and was like so excited. well her face seems red, so i suppose she's a little drunk la. then she opened her arms, and i was like.. erm.. what is she going to do? she want to hug me ah? i was quite stunned and duno what to do. then she hugged me, and i was like.. errr.. ok... alright it's just those friendly hug, not those hug like you'd hug your bolster to sleep. well, i've not been hugged by anyone much from the opposite gender you know...

from what i can recall from my memories, my family never embraced hugs much. other than i was a baby, i guess i was not hugged very much. and growing up in a boys primary school, having no sisters, i typically didn't have much contact with the opposite gender since young. i wasn't a touchy person at all. 1+ year ago, i'm the kind of person that will not try to touch girls at all. eg, if i'm to wake a girl up, the most i'll do is poke at her arm to wake her up. i'm not even comfortable sitting too close to a girl. yeah i'm girl shy. very. and i used to think, if i'm always like that, then next time if i got gf how sia? lol. so i thought i should change. and after i read the five love languages, yeah i made a change for the better. now i understood how to use physical touch to express love, but i guess i still have a long way to go..

so back to the hugging part. yeah, i guess i'm still pretty girl shy. that ex-colleague, yeah she's quite pretty. lol. but i'm just... not so comfortable with it la. haha.. the thing that came to my mind was, "errr... so i've given my first ever hug with someone of the opposite gender that's not within my family... man... i thought the person would be at least my gf or my future wife..." yeah i'd hoped i'd leave my first hug, my first kiss, etc, for my future wife. but, there goes. lol. somehow i can't get it off my mind.. i mean.. i've NEVER been so close to anyone of the opposite gender!!! i think i do mind it. i really wished that it was someone i like. o_O

oh well, what's done is done. i think i'm thinking too much. c'mon it's just a friendly hug. well, thank God it's just an ex-colleague. i don't know her very well and long. if it was someone i like, something like that would most probably make me sleepless for a few nights, and keep my heart thumping so fast and hard 24/7. lol! yeah i know myself. that'd happen. just an sms is enough to keep me feeling so intense for a day, i can't imagine a hug. maybe i'll be so excited, my heart will thump so hard i suffer a heart attack. ok, break that in the name of Jesus. ahh... pray for me.

okok i'll update

alright, by popular demand (1 person), i'll update. i'm sick. very sick. ughh.. think my fever's gone, but still down with very bad flu. the flu got so bad i couldn't sleep well on monday night. but thank God, it's better already. at least my nose is not like a tap that cannot be turned off anymore. still feeling very tired. but no worries. i'm sure i'll recover soon! i got four prayer warriors praying for me ok!! wahahahah.. thank God for them too!! ok maybe got more praying for me, but these four is special one lo. my dedicated intercessors!!

this week i leading worship for service, so i must get well by then. and this week's pretty busy, and there isn't time to have any practice before sunday. but i'm sure the Holy Spirit will lead us!! i will give my best for Him!

just came back from the Symmetry and Crystals lecture. wa, it's really cheem. i never knew how cheem symmetry can get. 2D diagrams already see until blur liao. today introduced 3D. pengz.. lol.. just hope can pass this module can liao. oh.. i'm clearing all my AUs this semester!! that means next semester i got no more subjects to take, just need to finish my FYP. wonder what i should do next semester.. hope to find some job to have some income, and probably go take CISSP or whatever certification for my future career. and of course, i can have more time for my cell and my ministries too!! woots!

oh, and i took up a challenge, i think. jiayi asked me to give her tuition for her 'A' level maths and physics. well, she sounded pretty desperate for help, so how could i reject her right. i'm such a nice guy. hohoho... well, i must admit there are some topics that i've forgotten la, but no worries. i have my JC notes with me!! ok, they're not very useful.. cos they're all empty, as in all the examples, cos i didn't take down any notes during lectures.. -_-" but i'll go and find some way to re-learn the stuff!! like how i spent hours re-learning MI and methods of difference that time when teaching yujie and qiqin.. lol.. my aim is to help jiayi get A for maths and physics, like i did. wahaha.. hmm.. wonder if her friends need help also.. then i tuition all of them, and try to get them to come to church.. hmm hmm... there's only about two months left i think, before their exams. i hope i can do enough to help them get As for maths and physics. =D

最珍貴的角落

词：万美兰
曲：游智婷

谢谢你灿烂笑容 照亮我的天空
谢谢你分享心情 把我放在你心中
夜里有时为寒冷 你我生根同暖土
友情是最亮的星 我的生命从此美丽

当你被花朵包围尽情欢欣
我帶春风使你舞其中
当你正走在坎坷路
我会伴你在左右

一起向蓝天欢呼向白云招手
我们要一起笑一起哭
千万人中有个人懂我
你有最珍貴的角落

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this is one of the songs from 赞美之泉 lastest album. it's a song about friendship, and i love it! the 曲, 词 is so beautiful!! when i heard this song at the SOP concert, a few friends came to my mind. they are my precious corner, and i know with them around, i am never alone! i thought of the times i had with them, and i cherish my relationship with them very much!!

i want to dedicate this song to wanyi, weiquan, yueyee, bingbing, ceci, qiuling, xinyi, sunmei, shuiting, zhijin and lingling!! i'll never forget the times you stayed by me when i was down. Thanks!