no mood to study!! i dun like projects!!

i dun like doing projects!! especially more so when my group has only 2 people when there should be 3!! especially more when there is only 2 people in the group and the other person happens to be a non-local and more than half of what he's saying i dun understand at all!! and him by speaking so softly doesn't help at all!! ahh... spent a few hours of very unproductive time trying to complete the project assignment which is to be handed in today. but thank God it is finally finished. seriously i damn sian about the project la, to the point i abit heck care what we hand in le. this i must apologize to my teammate. but, i just feel so sian, esp when i like know nuts about what is required lo. think my group mate like abit pissed with me also. he like very gan jiong bout whether can finish in time anot, then i like so relak relak... but duno y he like everything wan ask me leh, then actually i havent really read up on the case article, so i duno how to answer also lo. then i say something then he will "orh...ok ok..." like that, like everything agree with me. then he ownself say one he dun write, i say one he immediately write down. aiyoh... think i must find one more to join us soon, if not i think i'll go crazy if this goes on. think he will also buay tahan. hahaha... maybe God wants me to learn to be more patient...

think i must switch mode to study mode. ever since came back from mission trip, i haven't been doing any studying at all!!! too busy travelling to and fro church, home and school and attending pastor zhang's lessons. today is finally the time when i can take a break, cos today and tomorrow no pastor zhang's lessons, and today i only got morning lessons. but then again, it seems that when i go for so much of lessons in church, when no need to go for lesson like feels abit weird. haha... anyway i love going for pastor zhang's lessons. always something new to learn, something new to experience. Praise the Lord!

you wish you had known him/her sooner?

ahh this morning log in MSN, then see one of my fren log in, then the nick put something like "why do i know you know and not earlier". ok i was in the BC203(the module i taking) seminar in IT lab, and maybe cos very boring so i start to think bout other stuff. yeah, so i was thinking why people always like to say such things, like they get a bf/gf liao then say things like "i regret not knowing you earlier". ok, maybe is cos of the circumstances i'm in now la, so i think knowing your partner earlier may not be a good thing.

i've spoken to a few people in church bout BGR stuff, and all of them tell me the same thing: dun get involved in relationships too early. and they all say that relationships last for 2-3 years enough already, then get married. so the time that you're suitable to go into a relationship is 2-3 years before u decide to get married. so example i decide to get married at.. lets say 29, minus 2-3 years of courtship, means i'm suitable to get a girlfriend when i'm bout 26. wow. like pretty late right. haha.. so going back to the topic, since i'm suitable to get a gf only when i'm like 26, getting to know/like someone now is too early. so, contrary to popular thinking, how i wish that i've not fallen for you now, cos now is not the time yet... *sigh*

i know some of u out there sure say, nvm la, get a gf first, no need must get married one ma. yala, get gf is not die die must marry her one, but i dun wan to go into a relationship if i dun intend to marry her, means that unless something goes wrong in the relationship i will marry her la. then some of u will say get gf first, get experience ma. wa i think this is crap nonsense. seriously i dun understand why some people go into relationships when they dun want to marry the other party. then why go into relationship? just to satisfy the desires of the heart? i think this is so immature thinking, so irresponsible.

ok, i didnt say why courtship only 2-3 years right. ahh, this will take pretty long to explain. of cos can longer la, but... got the reasons la. i havent ask any pple out of my church regarding this. hmm... maybe i can go and do some survey and use this as my research project. hahaha..