pain..

hmm.. since yesterday night, in my mind is pretty dazed.. the thing i find hard to come to terms with.. but in my pain, i felt how much you meant to me. despite the pain, despite that i still cannot come to terms with what you told me, i still love you so much. i never want to let you go.. for what you told me, it seemed that my dream was over. my plans, my dreams for the future, all smashed up.. you told me to be strong. and so i will. i'll pick myself up. i'll be stronger. i have to be there for you, so i can't go down. all the things i promised, i will keep them.

as surely as God lives, i will make good the promises to you. lll.