God is amazing!!!

just finished my stats paper. wow, God is simply amazing. it is out of this world that i could have such peace in my heart, even when i know practically nuts about stats. Thank God that it is an open-book exam.

throughout the exam, i was flipping through the books looking for something that i can scribble about. it's miraculous i could always find something, though i don't know if it's correct. the last question was asking something bout heteroscedasticity. i was like... "huh? what is that??". looked through the textbook, search in the index, couldn't find anything. suddenly a thought struck me to look in my notes. i knew it was God prompting me, so i did, and indeed found something about that bombastic word!! wow, it's just so amazing. u just cannot imagine how God worked to help me. the notes for that topic wasn't printed by me. i haven't been printing notes for more than half of the sem. that set of notes was given to me by charmaine, when she printed out an extra copy. God! You're amazing!

another thing during the paper was that my flu got very very bad. kept sneezing and my 鼻涕 kept coming out. it was really terrible. think i spent about 25% of the time sneezing and drying up my running nose. Thank God i brought a packet of tissue with me, which i never did before for past papers. God... You're just so good to me.

during the last 10 mins, after i finish my last question, i decided to take a break. the flu was too much. i cannot take it liao. though i got 1 or 2 blanks, i decided to forgo it. so i was there sitting down doing nothing. i looked around. everyone was busy writing, flipping their books. comparatively, i was just there stoning. the peace i had within me was out of this world. i know that it was God. how can i be so calm when i know so little about stats and during the paper, just sit there and do nothing? it's not that i've given up. it's because i've handed everything over to God. the peace that God gives when you do that... it's amazing. you just have to experience it yourself... whatever the results may be, i just want to thank God.

you know, for the past 10+ years of my life, i'm so blessed by the Lord academically. PSLE, 'O' level, 'A' level, and even my Uni first sem grades. i could always get good or decent results, even if i didn't put in alot of effort, like what happened during my 'O' levels. had some problems back then. but God brought me through. some of my friends think that i'm smart, think that i'm clever, but i'm really nothing. it is God who is helping me. it is through such little things in life, and when i start to look back, i realise how God has been helping me, and bringing me to who and what i am today. i feel so blessed. i feel so loved by God.

Thank you God. Thank you Jesus, from the bottom of my heart...